3 days. 3 fucking days of 'do you need some help' 'let me do that for you' 'is there anything you need' and those stupid fucking fake smiles. They don't get it. I didn't need to be treated like fine china, I needed to be treated like a normal person!!! I was sitting on the couch reading and decided to watch some tv.
"Hey Ni wanna watch something with me?" It was close to lunch time and I know the only thing he loves more than eating is eating while watching tv.
"Yeah sure, I'll get lunch, you chose what to watch," he picked up the remote and chucked it at me. Shit! I forgot about the bruising on my stomach from when Ky punched me and caught the remote right up against it. I sucked in a deep breath quickly as a reaction. Fuck, shouldn't not have done that.
"Niall you Moran! Be more careful!"
"Niall what the fuck were you thinking you should have been way more careful," the boys were all yelling at Niall. Because I was to stupid to catch the remote in a better way.
"Guys calm the fuck down I am fine! It wasn't Nialls fault I just caught the remote in the wrong way. Jesus." I rolled my eyes and went to my room, no longer in the mood for lunch and tv. I grabbed my iPad and logged on to the one site I felt good on. People posted things they needed advice on and others were able to give advice. Not anyone could give advie, there was a selection of about 100 people who could, I was one of them. Of course, its all anonymous so my one who received advice from me just knows me as adviser34. Most of us sign our user names at the bottom though (in my case AussieBel). Yeah I know, I probably don't seem like the type to give advice since I should really be the one getting it, but I am actually a genius when it comes to helping others. I went through about ten, then I got to one that really caught my attention.
I need help. Big time. There's this girl I'm living with (just friends,) She's really great...but she's been though a lot. I don't know that much about her since she's not very open about herself. Really recently something happened to her that involved her past and it effected her really badly but now she's trying to act like nothing ever happened and I don't know why because something did happen and there's no point denying it. Me and my mates are tyring to be extra nice but it seems to just get her mad with us. Anyway, I'm really worried about her. I want to become her friend again, like her proper friend. How?
I stared at the screen wide eyed. That sounded exactly like what was going on with me. Then it clicked. H.E.S. Harry Edward Styles. Could it be? No, of course not. But maybe it was... I decided just to reply, even if it wasn't Harry someone needed help so I might as well give it a go.
I mean this with no offence, but you don't understand women. This girl obviously wants you to act like it didnt happen. Of course, it happened and there is no denying that but she doesn't want you to think of it when you look at her, she wants you to just she her as a person, not the person with this sad past that something bad happened to. It seems to me that maybe by you and your mates being extra nice your doing more harm than help. You don't want to treat her like glass. It will make her feel helpless and pathetic. Let her know your there for you, and be a good friend. But you want her to think your doing because you care about her not because she is 'fragile'. So treat her more like you would before. Watch a movie with her, order Chinese. Do something that shows her that you know the girl you knew before is still there and you are happy to respect her wishes not to talk to her about it.
I hope this helped, from AussieBel.
I debated weather to put my user name in at the end but figured he would realise it was me. I stayed in my room for another hour or so, then I went into the kitchen and found a note. Boys have all gone out for the night, they will be back by 2. I am out getting food, will be back soon ~Harry. I smiled and went to sit on the couch. Right as I did, Harry walked through the door holding a bunch of movies and Chinese food. Holy shit, it was him! I had to hold back a laugh at the fact that he literally got movies and Chinese food.
He sat down next to me and held out the movies with a questioning look on his face. I pointed to one of them, and watched as he put it in the DVD player and handed me a serving of fried rice and plum sauce beef. I could help but smile the whole time. He looked at me, crap he'd caught me staring. He just smiled and pulled me close to him so my head was resting on his chest. Throughout the movie I kept looking up at him, but he was watching the movie so intently. After he finished eating he put his arms around me and rested his chin on my head. We watched the movie like that. I realised that it was a very 'couplely' position but at this point I honestly didnt care. I was comfortable and It felt...... Well nice I guess is the best word to describe it. It felt nice.
While watching the movie I realised I had put us in a very couple like position. I hadn't intended it, it just felt right to be sitting with her like that. It felt....nice. I kept looking down at her. She was engrossed in the movie though. Once it finished the credits stated rolling, this was one of those movies where you left the credits on just to hear the music. I decided to take advantage of the music. I stood up, pulling Bella with me.
"Come dance with me," I said.
"What?" She giggled. I realised this is what the advisor person was talking about. Yesterday I would have offered to take her to her room or something, if she tried to dance I would only be thinking about the possibilities of her hurting herself. But now, doing what I would have done without the Ky situation, she looked happy, and like herself.
"I said dance with me, c'mon," I pulled her towards the open space and started dancing with her. She laughed but went along with it. The first song was a moderately fast one so we just danced and got into it a little bit, as the song progressed I could see Bella becoming less and less embarrassed. The second song was fast, so we both danced stupidly laughing at and with each other, her laugh was gorgeous. And the way she looked down every time she blushed made her look so innocent. The smile never left my face. Because Bella was happy. I could see it. Even though it may not last past this song, right now she was happy. And that made up for everything else, the fact that right now, she was gennuanly happy.
Dancing with Harry was the most fun I'd had in a while. At first I thought he was joking when he asked me to dance but then he pulled me to the floor space and started dancing.
He was smiling the whole time, and I have to admit, his smile was amazing. After the fast song a slower one came on. Both of us still smiling, he put his arms loosely around and started dancing again. Before I knew it we were slow dancing. And if felt wonderful. Suddenly he whispered something in my ear.
"I've missed you Bella." I knew what he meant. For almost two weeks me and Harry hadn't even had a proper conversation with each other. I'd missed it.
"I've missed you too Harry." I leant my head into his chest and we continues to sway back and forth. I pulled my head back and looked up at him, about to say something, but my breath caught when I realised how close our lips were. His eyes widened slightly, and he didnt move, neither did I. We were frozen, our lips inches apart. Was he going to kiss me? I think I wanted him to kiss me. He was looking at my lips. Naa, he wouldn't kiss me. Would he? I'm just Bella. Boring old Bella.
We were dancing, then she looked up at me and went to say something, but froze. I heard her breath catch, mine did too a little. Our lips were so close. Kiss her Harry! I wanted to kiss her, so badly. But did she want me to kiss her, no she wouldn't. Did she? Do something Harry! I couldn't stop looking at her lips. Would she kiss me back if I kissed her? Probably not. I was just Harry, and she was Bella. Beautiful sweet amazing Bella. She wouldn't kiss me, I should give it a go though. It was now or never. Come on Harry you have to do something. But I'd waited too long. Slowly she lowered her head back onto my chest and continued dancing with me. I let out a long but silent breath. You fucking idiot Harry. She was right there looking at you and you didn't do anything. We danced to a few more songs, coincidently they were all slow songs so we continued to slow dance. Once the songs were over she pulled away, more than last time, and looked into my eyes. She smiled softly.
"Thank you Harry," Then she walked away from me into her bedroom. Once the door closed I fell back onto the couch. That was it. I'd missed my chance. Probably my only chance, with Bella.
Harry why didnt you kiss her!!!
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