Where Have You Been? (Michael Clifford LS)
I woke up to the banging of drums and the strings of guitars whoever was playing was really good but with jet lag all I wanted to do was sleep, there was a knock on my door so I opened it to find Michael "turn your music off" he said in his sleepy state "it's not me the music woke me up to" I say my eyelids threatening to fall "well if it's not you we must have some neighbors with good music taste, come on lets investigate and maybe ask them nicely to turn it off" Michael said so I stepped out and closed the door behind me we walked around the corner and discovered the noise came from '1A' so I knocked on the door "hey we are your new neighbors and we don't want to come off as rude but if it's not to much trouble can you turn the music off we all have terrible jet lag" Michael said as I continued to knock until the door opened and I saw a girl with a splash of red in her hair she was smiling and looking down "I'm so sorry sure we don't mind at a-" she started but stopped when she looked up she looked at loss for words as soon as her blue eyes met with mine I just knew that I know her but I couldn't put a name to the face Michael looked between the 2 of us "hey Ash who's at the door?" I heard a male voice ask, Ash? as in Asher? "yea who is it we have to finish working" another male voice boomed and as soon as I made another direct eye contact with this girl I just knew from the pain behind her blue eyes "A" I started when the door was slammed in my face Michael looked to me as if not knowing what to say, we walked back over to our place "you know Luke you started into that girls eye for a long time did you know her?" he asked I looked and whipped a stray tear away "you could say that" I answer "did she break your heart?" he asks "not fully it was mostly my fault and me saying some things I regret" I stated opening the door to my apartment "what did you say?" I sighed "something along the lines of 'if you leave I will never talk to you again, you don't deserve my love' where she said something like 'I'm going to follow my dream if you like it or not so if that's how you fell then the case is settled, I will never forgive you' I really screwed myself but letting her go" when Michael finally asked "who is she?" he asked "Mikey…that was my little sister"
as I slammed the door in their faces I slid down the door pulling my knees to my chest letting a few tears fall,I remember our fight like it was yesterday even though it was 2 years ago, 2 whole years, 2 years of ignoring each other and all I could do was think about him and miss him each day I was gone. a part of me was happy that he was the new neighbor, although the other part still hated his guts but I got to see Michael, we weren't formally introduced but it was like a burst of energy when I saw him standing there with Luke. I had never met the other members of his band and I'm guessing he didn't tell them I existed but like he said that day 'you walk out that door you cut your ties with me' more tears fell from my eyes down my cheeks "hey Asher what's the hol- you ok?" Rebel said walking up to me Jace sat down next to me as I shook my head no and placed my head in Jace's chest "what's wrong?" Rebel asked "our new neighbors are my brother and his band" Jace and Rebel looked at each other when Rebel lets out a sigh and looked me right in the eye "look we are gonna call it quits for today ok, we want you to take a nap or read a book and try to relax, forget he is even here right now and when you are ready sort through your emotions "Rebel says helping me up, Jace added "try not to bottle them up it is unhealthy" I showed them a small smile "thank you guys" I say quietly and walked up to my room closing the door behind me I crawled under my covers as my tears continued to fall, I really missed him but that doesn't change the fact that Luke never wanted to speak to me again, I sighed at the thought of my brother 'I wonder if he thinks about me as much as I do about him?' I thought to myself but this just led to more tears, what a waste, I wonder if he is still mad? well if he is still mad about me leaving to pursue my dream then he doesn't need any of my tears, but again I couldn't help but cry…2 years of missing him, 2 years of knowing I hurt him, and 2 years of not caring… 'no more crying Asher!' I shouted in my head but as I laid my head on the pillow and I closed my eyes his name escaped my thoughts and out through my lips "Luke" I said barley above a whisper as I fell asleep with the final tear falling down my face