Where Have You Been? (Michael Clifford LS)
I pushed the door open and started running "Ash?" people started to call after me but I didn't stop I just ran as fast as I could until I ran out of breath "where am I?" I ask looking around I saw a small liquor store so I walked inside, the little buzzer by the door went off letting the girl know someone was in here "hey" she said looking up from her register I gave her a subtle nod before walking back to the fridge I scanned the door looking for something good before opening the door I grabbed a few sodas and some other things before heading to pay "hey aren't you Asher Hemmings?" the girl asked as she bagged my things "yea thats me" I reached for my wallet "so where are you headed?" she asked I just chuckled "to be honest I don't know" I handed her the money and headed for the door and made my way back to the hotel, "this is whats best for him" I thought as I pressed the button leading up to my floor, as the two metal doors opened I walked out and headed for the room but once I made it I stood in front of the door and just stared almost to scared to go inside I let out a sigh and pushed the door open closing it behind me I set the bag onto the bed and hit shuffle on my phone letting music play as I walked to the bathroom and just stared at my puffy red reflection "you don't deserve to cry you did this to yourself" I turned on the sink splashing my face with water I grabbed the small towel drying my face with it and when I looked back up at the mirror I saw Michael standing behind me his eyes tear stained his hair a mess, I quickly turned around but no one was there I looked back at the mirror and there he was "why?" he asked I placed my hands on the counter and started to cry "I did it for you" I said tightening the grip in my hands I looked back up and his reflection was gone "oh Clifford...I'm sorry" I walked out to the room and called down to the front desk "hi could I order a pot of tea to the room please?" I tried to conceal the sadness in my voice "of course how many people will be drinking the tea?" I let out a sigh "just one" I heard the subtle sound of scratching before the lady spoke up "alright that will be up to your room soon, anything else I can do for you?" I shook my head even though she couldn't see me "thats all thank you" and I hung up I grabbed a pair of black leggings and a navy blue hoodie changing from the clothes I had on to something comfortable, as I pulled my hair up into a messy ponytail there was a knock at my door I looked in the mirror and my face was stained with leftover makeup I couldn't get off and tears but I didn't care enough to fix it as I walked over to the door and opened it slowly expecting to see someone with tea but instead I saw Luke "Asher" I held my hand up "I only opened the door because I thought you were the tea I ordered" I went to close the door but he placed his hand on the door stopping it from closing "please move your hand" I say softly "Ash what happened tonight was none of your fault" Luke said I stopped pushing at the door "Luke I don't want to talk so you are waisting your time" he let out a sigh "he may be my friend but you are my sister I'm worried about you" I just stared at the ground "well you shouldn't be I did what I had to do so please leave" Luke still pressing against the door but said nothing "Asher I'm your brother please let me help you" I felt the hot tears burning from behind my eyes trying to push themselves forward "go away! I don't need your help and I don't need you!" I yelled tears rolling down my face Luke stood there almost shocked "Ash..." I grabbed the door and looked my brother dead in the eyes "I should have never talked to you that day back at the apartments" I said before slamming the door in his face "it was a mistake to think everything would be alright" I thought to myself I waited by the door until I knew Luke had walked away when there was another knock on the door "room service" I opened it and saw an older lady she had a smile on her face until she made eye contact with me "oh sweetie is everything alright?" she asked "just a lot going on" I answer as vague as possible she hands me the slip and I sign for the tea and she handed me the tray "well whatever is bothering you sweetheart just know that no problem is forever and it will get better soon" I smiled softly "thank you" I let the door close and walked over to the balcony, I placed the tea tray on a little table and sat on a chair with my knees to my chest as I poured myself a cup of tea staring at the stars "I hope you can forgive me someday"