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Im In Love With My Bully: Series 1 Book 1

A Little Pain Might Not Hurt As Much

I woke up this morning getting ready for a band practice that we hadn't had in a while. I went down stairs to the kitchen as I saw Kayla sitting on the sofa with the patches still in there place. I sat beside her turning to her face.

"Hey." She said. I touched her thigh where one of the patches were. She didn't gasp in pain. "Does it hurt." I said lightly touching it again. "Not as much as yesterday." She said touching my forehead seeing if I had pain in my patches.

"Mine is still aching with it." I said. "Hey, what are you doing." Said Michael. I let go of Kayla's thighs putting my hands in my lap. "I was just," I said,"I don't want to hear it."Michael said before I got to what I wanted to say.

Kayla put her hand on Michael's shoulder trying to cool him off. "Baby, it's alright." She said. "Can I talk to you Crash." Michael said trying to make it a joke. "Yeah, sure." I said. I got up walking towards a corner almost blocked in.

I bit the inside of my lip thinking how much it would hurt if he punched me. "Don't let me see you around her unless me, Calum or Luke is with you." He said trying to be serious. I couldn't hold a straight face so I laughed out,"Yes." Michael went back into the kitchen as I took a glance at Kayla, feeling hurt.

"Ash?" She said. I walked away not answering her. I went up to my room slamming the door and plopped down on my bed. "I can't lose a friend." I said to myself. Just do it already. Michael's just going to keep her from you. He's going to keep you from your friends, and soon enough you'll be nothing.

I got up looking myself in the mirror. "How foolish can I be. It's all my fault that she's like this. I knew I shouldn't have took her with me. Now she's held captive and I'm not aloud to see her." I said. "Bud, what happened back there." Said Kayla opening my room door.

She called me bud. "Nothing, just Michael." I said trying not to say anything. "What about Michael."She said. "It's all my fault. Why don't you see that." I said. I could feel tears drop down my face as she touched my shoulder pulling me in for a hug.

I wrapped my arms around her thinking about what Michael said. I pushed her away. "What. Is something wrong? What is it Ashton. Tell me." She said. I could see tears filled her eyes as I began to yell at her."NOTHING." I yelled.

"Yeah, nothing, because my feelings mean nothing to you." She said. She walked away crying about to leave the room as I grabbed her arm. "No, I didn't mean it like that." I said still holding her arm. She slang her arm out of my grip walking out the door leaving a trail of her tears behind her. I truly lost her now.

DO IT. She doesn't care about you. You can do it. Just once. To feel the pain, the hurt that she released from you. So you don't have to live with her doubts.

I walked out my room seeing Kayla crying. What happened now. "Hey, Kayla. What's wrong." I said reaching for her arm. She turned around with her hands covering her face. Her clothes were the same as yesterday.

She came towards me into my arms as I held hugging her. I could feel the heat off of her body go onto mine. Her tear sank into my shirt leaving me wet. I looked at her lifting her chin up. "What's wrong." I said asking again. "Ash, find out from him. He snapped at me when I tried to find out what Michael told him." She said.

I couldn't help, but be there for her. I let go of her giving her one more hug before trying to talk to her. "Go to Michael. I'll try to figure it out. Don't tell Michael anything though." I said. She nodded. I turned towards the door about to go in as she said my name. "Oh and Luke." She said. I let go of the door handle looking at her once more.

She came closer kissing me on the cheek. I could feel a spark began when her lips hit my cheek. "Thanks. For everything." She said rubbing my arm. I could see her blush as she walked off. I entered Ashton's room closing the door behind me. He was laying on the floor with glass in his hand and his right arm held out. "Don't." I yelled.

He looked up to me with tears all down his face. "I want to Luke. You don't understand. I'm loosing everything." He said sobbing. "Tell me. Tell me everything. What happened." I said sitting down beside him. I took the glass out of his hand and throwing it across the floor. "Michael happened. He won't let me get near Kayla and I'm still hung up on that crash I had with her in there. I feel like it was my fault. Now Kayla's mad at me. I couldn't tell her. She can't know." He said tucking his legs against his chest and laying his arms on his knees.

"You couldn't tell her what." I said. Ash didn't answer me as I repeated to question. "You couldn't tell her what Ash." I said again.

He got up in anger as he yell, "That Michael forbid me to be with her alone. He doesn't trust me. I was supposed to be her friend. Now, I'm just a forgotten. Memory." He said. I got up putting my hands on his shoulder.

"Go talk to her." I said to him. "What?" He said. I shove him out his room as I said one more time, "Go talk to her." He and I walked towards Kayla as I gave her a little smile. Michael gave Ashton a death glare when he said," Didn't I say." "That he couldn't be alone. He's not. I'm going to be here. You need to make sure that Calum's ready, Michael." I said.

Michael walked away calling Calum on his phone. I pulled Kayla and Ashton aside from Michael. "Now, start talking." I said. I glance at Ashton hoping he would say something. "Kayla, I'm sorry. Michael told me that." He said stopping. "Told you what."She said.

I couldn't stand how long it took him to say what he wanted to so I said it for him. "Michael's still hung up about the crash. He blames Ashton and therefor Michael doesn't want Ashton around you unless Me, Calum or Michael is tagging alone with yall." I said finishing up. Kayla sobbed with happiness as she hugged Ashton.

"He couldn't keep me from something that was down to happened." She said. Ashton hugged back feeling relieved. At the corner of my eye I could see Michael coming closer trying to put on a sham smile. I walked away back into my room as Kayla started to talk to Michael. Hannah was still sleeping.

I curled up next to her kissing her forehead. "Hey, Luke." She groaned. "Hey, your awake, sunshine." I tried to say. "Yeah. What's with the fuss out there." She said questioning me. "Oh nothing. Just some tough love. You know I love you, right?" I said. I tried to nudge that last part in thinking about when Kayla kissed me.

Hannah instantly sat up in my bed looking at me confused. "Yeah, why?" She said. " No reason. I just wanted to hear it from you." I said, but I didn't want to hear it. I wanted to see how much it meant to her.

I leaned face to face against her kissing her lips softly trying to feel a spark, but nothing came. Just a regular kiss. I looked into her eyes as I froze up. There was nothing there. I didn't feel anything. I don't love her, do I? I said questioning myself.

"I love you." She said kissing me with passion. "I love you too." I said back. "I got to go to practice. Watch Kayla ok." I said getting up about to leave."Ok bye." She said as I left. I went up to Michael. "We got to go or else we'll be late." I said to him.

"Bye Kayla." He said to her. "Bye." She said giving him a hug. She gave Ashton a hug too, then came up to me to give me a hug. "Keep an eye on Michael for me please." She said whispering to me. I nodded as me and the guys left the house. Calum got out of his car that he just parked into driveway. He joined us in the tour bus as we began to drive.

I watched as Kayla entered the room. "Hey you alright from last night. I missed you." I said worried. I ran up to her giving her a hug. "Yeah, I'm fine now that everything is settled." She said.

I turned on Netflix as me and her began watching movies. I couldn't get over why Luke asked me if I loved him when he know's I do. And the fact that he stuttered when I told him that he still loved Kayla. I love him, but does he love me? I don't no. Maybe I'm over thinking it. "Hey Kayla, What do you think is wrong with Luke." I said.

At that moment I thought that Luke told her that I kissed him. I had to find out what she was talking about. "What are you talking about." I said. At that moment she turned towards me. I thought I was in sudden death.

"He stuttered yesterday when I said that he stilled loved you. He paused for a while before changing his answer. Do he love me?" She said. At that moment I thought to myself, He cares, he still loves me. Like I care though. I have Michael. What if he thinks that the kiss I gave him was special? "Yeah he loves you, I guess he's still hung up on what happened at the part.." I said stopping.

Hannah doesn't know about the party why did I say anything. I'm so dumb, why did I even continue. "What happened at the party?" She said to me. I froze up looking at her with doubt and fear.

"Kayla what happened." She said. "He kissed me." I blurted out. I covered up my mouth as I buried my face in the pillow. "Kayla why didn't you tell me." She said getting up in anger. "Because I didn't think that you would end up with him and that you would need to know." I said taking my head out of the pillow.

"Kayla he's my boyfriend now. God leash." She said walking out the room. "Hannah." I yelled. She'll cool off. Hopefully. We're all loosing someone today. Why? What did we ever do wrong.




Hey for all you guys that read this the next book in this series is "Married To My Bully : Series 1 Book 2" Thanks for reading my book. Love you guys

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I feel bad for luke now :(

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Michael and Kayla yassss ❤❤❤

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Lol sorry for the slow updates. I'ma try to update today. chapter 22 is going to be "BIG" just to let you guys know.

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